Grief counseling & other things

I haven’t been updating this blog as much as I probably should. I just don’t believe in pushing myself to write. It’s always within me to do it and when I feel compelled, I do. It’s been a crazy year so far. I’ve gone through so much and I have learned a lot about myself and people. It wasn’t easy and for a while I didn’t think I was going to make it but I got a lot of help and I pulled through. I still have my days where I think about the past and I look back fondly, but ultimately, I think I’m a lot better off. I wasn’t even allowed to be me in that relationship and just the fact of now being able to express myself  in the ways that I really feel are necessary to my growth, I can breathe better. I don’t have all the answers to this, in fact, I don’t really think I know anything but I am aware that the”me” that I am now is more “me” than I have ever been. I still pull back a lot and maybe I shouldn’t but I’m becoming a brand new person, slowly but surely. The person I feel I was always supposed to be.

I also think I found someone that I may be interested in being with, for the long term but I’m no psychic. Only time will tell if this person can handle being with me. Things in general aren’t that bad right now though. They could be better but they could be a lot worse. I just want all of the people who read this, whether you just got out of a relationship or you just have commitment issues, my advice is “Get out of your comfort zone”. Do something you have never done before and try your best to let go of all the thinking you do. Your brain doesn’t have to be a high speed computer all the time. Sometimes, the moment is all we need. Sometimes, the moment can change you and make you realize things in a different way. I still have to practice what I preach but knowing is half the battle right? Shouts to my man BDiddy for the birth of his daughter and my cousin Randy. I really miss you man. I gotta get back to Brooklyn soon, let me just finish some projects I have here. Everybody else that is reading this, I love you all. Let’s end this year positively.