Is it really a failure that you’ve experienced? Are you looking at this objectively or are you judging the situation solely based on what you see right in front of you? Have you ever heard of the saying “Believe none of what you hear and half of what you see”? I think that we should modify that saying, for it to be a bit more accurate: “Believe none of what you hear and half of what you discern.”. That feels better, to me. See, the thing is that, while I was growing up, I was taught that if I wanted something badly enough and I worked hard to obtain that thing, and still didn’t get it, then I had ultimately failed in my quest. Which is…meh…it just never sat well, with me. That notion is the part that I feel that many of us have not learned . The part where you learn from your attempt and you refine your effort, in order to get a bit further on the next try, or even to succeed. There are so many things to look at, when you are finished with an attempt and I feel that we tend to overlook where we’ve ACTUALLY gotten because we are, generally, so focused on a perceived result. We lament a perceived failure. That’s not the right angle to look from. You’ve learned something. Look for what you’ve learned. Because, regardless of if you feel that you’ve succeeded or not, you have made the path a bit clearer due to your endeavour. Break it down and find the gift that was left for you. There IS something there. There always is. I know of people who are paralyzed by the fear of failing so, for that reason, they don’t even try, which is a sort of death, in and of itself. I’ve never understood that way of thinking but it isn’t for me to understand. I just have to do the best that I can, to continue giving maximum effort to any and everything that I give my time to. There’s no other way around it. To not get too down if I don’t immediately get what I want and to understand that there is a message in the attempt which, if properly deciphered, will help me get to the place where I am ultimately supposed to end up . It’s a concept. The one that I choose to live by. No doubt that there are hundreds of millions of different notions. I would simply like you to know that, in my mind, there’s no such thing as “failure”. It’s just an ascension to enlightenment. Now, go try.
Ben…man…what can I say about Ben? He is quite a character. We struck up a very quick friendship, upon the basis of his efforts to engineer a culture of sharing, within the community. I have a lot of respect for that because, this is a man that is using his valuable time to spark an idea in the minds of others. An idea that shouldn’t be so foreign to us. I know that we all share things with people that we love. You might make dinner for your significant other, or buy your kid a cookie, but what about the people that you have no emotional connection to? Do you have to feel something for someone in order to do a selfless deed? In that case, is it truly selfless? Whatever you believe to be true, Ben is challenging that notion with a picnic blanket and some vegetables, harvested on the farm that he works on. The shit, ain’t elaborate. Nor does it have to be.
I make sure to see him every week, on my way back home, and I have seen the growth in his project. Drivers, stuck in traffic, can’t help but watch as cyclists, joggers, and various passers-by stop under the tree, where the vegetables have been set, and start to learn of the idea that Ben is attempting to project to the masses. I see other folks wanting to know what is going on but they are nervous, apprehensive maybe. He understands, and greets everyone with the same warm-hearted smile, regardless of whatever face they make, in his direction. Please take the time to listen to the conversation that we had, in our time together. The idea to share with others definitely isn’t new but, every now and then, we need a bit of a recharge. As Ben shares with us, I share this with you.
I’m focused, lately. I talk about balance and about how much I know that it is important but, when you’re an extremist, do you truly have the ability to comprehend the premise of that notion? Regardless, I have hopped onto the track that I was always, sort of, supposed to have been on, according to certain folks. I’m here to demonstrate the growth that is unavoidable. Not to brag. To be completely honest, I don’t recognize this person that I am, right now. I don’t know this guy. I’ve never been this guy. I knew that I could do the things that I’m doing now, but I wasn’t really sure when I would get here. It’s an interesting observation. For a long time, I’ve felt like the guy in a standstill, while the world kept flying by me. There was a time when I felt a bit anxious, to get going, but I had realized that my time would come. Is that time right now? I don’t really know. I just know that whatever “this” is, it must be cared for. Nurtured. Delicately. It may be the start of something or it could be the peak of something. Either way, I have to be smart about how I approach things, from now on. Recently, I’ve been isolating my mind, far away from all of the outside noise that might distract me from doing everything that I want to do. Writing, growing my plants, riding around the city, these are all things that are helping me to center my mind. I, sometimes, wonder how centered I can get myself. In my mind, there are two dueling trains of thought. On the one hand, I am proud of where I have allowed my mind to go, and the focus that I have been demonstrating, despite the other emotional issues that have been occupying most of my focus, for quite some time now. On the other hand, I am aware that my current focus represents but a grain of sand in the desert. I believe that one of my greatest strengths is my inability to see the ceilings to my possibilities. With that being said, I know that I can focus harder and I know that I can block out the noise, to a greater degree than I currently am. I’m not going to try too hard to understand what exactly is happening. I’m simply going to ride the wave. Cultivating my feelings and making sure that I make the most of the situation at hand.