I don’t know what to write, at the moment, but that’s never really been an issue. I normally just have to start down a path and, eventually, something shakes loose. I will say this: I’m really glad that I have nurtured my ability to communicate, in this form. I’ve come across a lot of brilliant minds that have a lot of trouble sharing their thoughts, when their thoughts are the only things occupying this blank canvas. I’ve always enjoyed reading but I’m not even sure as to what made me start drafting. It has always just felt…smooth. I wasn’t always skilled at the production aspect of creative writing, but I have been very fortunate to be able to find the words that I need, in order to express the series of interwoven thoughts that paint the picture of where I want to take readers. I’m pretty sure that, as I progress as a writer, I will look back on these entries and see so many flaws that it will embarrass me to think that I ever viewed these posts as “decent”. For now, however, I like ’em. I have received a few messages from people in different walks of life. Some I had/have a relationship with, and some I did not. All of whom have expressed how much they’ve enjoyed the things that I have written, as well as the manner in which they have been communicated. I truly appreciate it. I never expected anyone to ever like what I write. I never even thought that I would ever let anyone see the things that I decided to write about. I was a shy kid who knew that he had many talents but was afraid to be made fun of, because those talents may not make me “cool”. I’ve never been “cool”, though. With that being said, I’m not sure what I was attempting to hold on to. My entire life has been me, standing on the opposite side of what people think is culturally relevant, and it used to bother me. I thought that it was because I was poor. Then I thought that it was because I wasn’t in the same shape as other folks. Hair, height, affiliations…I looked into it all. You know, just to check it off of the list. Gradually, I came to realize that none of that stuff even mattered. In fact, I started to realize that by embracing myself and being comfortable with the person that I know that I am, deep down inside, I don’t even need to be viewed as anything. I’ve been by myself and I will be by myself. I don’t need to be a “part of something” to validate how I feel about who I am. So, I write. And I do plenty of other things. I also DON’T do certain things. Do I think that I am cool , as a result of it all? Meh, not really. That’s for you to decide. But does it even really matter?
Shoutout to Zander Howard-Scott, Milton Zhang, and Eric Tschaeppeler.
Foreigner Exchange episode 4… Coming…
Here’s the second part of the interview with Eric. I’m truly glad that I started this segment. It’s fulfilling to be able to lock in with someone and go back and forth, all while having a genuine mutual respect. To hear their thoughts, passions, ideas, and stories, keeps me believing in exactly what this entire ideology was born of; The belief that we are all great. That we are all able to do GREAT things. What exactly those great things are, I will let you figure out for yourself but I know what I have in mind and it, assuredly, isn’t going to plateau with Foreigner Exchange. It isn’t going to peak with The Nightfox Blog.
I’m just getting started.
Get familiar with some of Eric’s work:
I’ve decided to introduce a new segment, to the site. I have so many great conversations with so many great people. Some of them I know and some of them, I meet randomly. With their permission, I wanted to bring you all a bit of those great exchanges. The first episode of “Foreigner Exchange” features my guy, Milton. It’s so great to be able to unwind and have fun little convos in the presence of wonderful folks. These people push me to use my brain at a higher frequency, understand things that I may never have thought about and, ultimately, help me to become a better person. I have a love for everyone and I wanted to give a little bit of that love back to the folks that are interested in my blog.
Here is the very first offering, from “Foreigner Exchange”.
Shoutout to Milton.
I have realized that my writing on this blog has escaped me a bit, as it always does, every now and then. I have hot and cold moments with the process and I believe that this is completely natural. But this time, as I kept thinking about certain topics that I wished to delve into, I realized that my desire to express myself has shifted slightly. At this point in my life, I have less inclination to write anything on here. I am more interested in visually representing how I feel and the perspectives that I come to. Currently, I am in a good mental space and, with that being said, I would like to offer that positive space to the world in the form of pictures, paintings and different forms of creative expression. There is no monetary motivations to any of this and that is how I think that it should be, because once I attach that sort of requirement to my creations it becomes more of an occupation than an outlet, which is really and truly not what I want.
The writing part of my creative process is going great. I have my books and write in them every day. I’ve learned to allow that process to become my way of getting certain things out, instead of feeling the need to write about specific situations. The interesting thing about the writing is that I have chosen to simply allow the moment to dictate the direction of the entry. This is sometimes very tough, considering that there are moments where my reluctance to limit the depth of the subject matter can take me back to some very difficult times. Occasionally, I’m actually surprised at the ease with which I get to the core of the issue that I end up writing about but, all in all, it is a very cathartic experience and I am very grateful for the ability to express myself in that way.
All of this to say that the blog isn’t going anywhere. I have promised changes for a while now and I have not done much in the way of that but it’ll happen. As reclusive as I am, this site has been a really great thing for me and I hope that you find it to be something that you enjoy as well. I will do my best to find new ways to make the site interesting. And creative.
Thank you for taking the time to read this entry.