Mental – 2

The universe has been speaking to me for quite some time now. I’ve always been careful to listen as closely as possible, ever since I was a kid. Observing people, in their element, always gave me a sense of enjoyment and, a lot of times, those people would take the time to talk to me and drop little jewels that I felt obligated to scrutinize. To me, it was the universe’s way of directing me onto the right path. Now, I feel like everything is coming full circle. Balance is required, though. Leaning too far in a certain direction will create unnecessary problems and I am well aware that I have those tendencies.

 

What do I do, then, to keep all of the aspects of my life in a semblance of active harmony? Meditation. I don’t meditate in the popular sense (cross-legged, seated posture). In fact, meditation appears in various forms, if you ask me. I remember being in the gym, a few years ago, running on the treadmill, and totally forgetting that my body was actually moving. I had gone somewhere else, within myself. It was as though my body had taken on an internal navigation system. Maybe, for you, it’s in writing words in a book or taking a walk. Maybe painting is the move. I know that for me, I have yoga, writing, chess, and generally being contemplative, among other things. It renews my energy. I’ve also been learning to reduce my output. It’s really important for me not to overextend myself. I have a certain belief in myself, as well as a certain level of dedication that I offer to everything that I give attention to, and in order for me to maintain those levels that I have cultivated, I need to reduce my societal output, at times.

 

This is knowledge that I am grateful that I have had the clarity to acquire and that I hope to use properly, as time goes along. After all, I believe that it is extremely important to have an outlet to, not only exert yourself, but to be able to retreat inward at times. I took the time to evaluate myself, during difficult times and to see what I needed, in order to slowly begin the march back to stable ways. The dark days aren’t over. In fact, I believe that there will never be a day when those clouds dissipate, but I am learning how to manage the different aspects of my personality in order to be more efficient in the projects that I undertake. There are great things coming. Great, great things that I am working on, for the blog. And the vlog. I just want people to understand that I am doing this for me, first and foremost. However, I’m so glad that so many folks check for me, every day, by coming on the blog. I won’t let you down. I’m just in a good mental space, man. So, I’ve got to ride this bitch ’til the casket drop.

 

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Are you that somebody?

Love. What is that? What does it even mean? I, personally, don’t know. There are explanations that have been given to describe it’s purpose but it seems that every single person has their own interpretation of it. If that’s the case, is it fair that we judge how any of us dances with this fire? Is what I think love to be, in fact some lesser form of affection? And if so, will I ever be able to reach a point where “love”, real love, is attainable? When I think of love, I think of an aurora borealis. I see a haze of colors in different forms. A stained sky. I believe that it is all we have. No matter what side we end up being on, good or evil, I think that we’re constantly reaching for it. Within ourselves or from others. You choose.

will I ever be able to reach a point where “love”, real love, is attainable?

Recently, I have been thinking about the concept of finding that “one person that is meant for each us” and I don’t know if that makes sense to me. You mean to tell me that there is ONE person, on this Earth, that is meant to be with me and only me? Does that mean that the other relationships are doomed to fail until I meet that ONE person? What if I already met her and she’s with someone else who treats her well and is deserving of her love. Am I then just late to the party? Pfff, some party.

I am writing this for all of the people that are out there living life, expecting that, at some point, they will meet that one person that will make their days even more complete than they already are. That person that makes them realize that there is an angle to the world that they never perceived. That colors could be brighter and fuller than they were aware of. I hope that you find that person. The incredible thing is that this person could be of any creed, color, religion, etc… They could be halfway around the world or they can be walking past you, during your work hours. I pray that you are not late to that party. It is inherently possible that, if you DO actually end up missing out on that individual by the slightest of margins, you can meet someone else that opens your world in a similar or altogether different way and makes you endlessly happy, but who knows? Life is funny in that way. The best that you can do is to put yourself in a position to succeed. The rest is not up to you. With any luck, your colors will brighten through the love that you have for yourself and the joy that your other has blessed you with.

Biha