The Journey

And so we keep it pushin’. There’s shit to do. Fuck all the roadblocks. We create a new path, in order to get to where we feel that we should be. It’s exhilarating. Where I am going, I have never been. I simply need to continue trusting whatever it is that I have been trusting, this entire time, and push forward. There are moments that cause me to second guess what should be done but whatever it is that I have been trusting is distinguishable from my brain telling me to make a certain decision. So I keep on steppin’ in the direction that I feel, within my being. I’m keenly aware that the journey is worthwhile and that every moment is Wimbledon, itself. The people that are along with me, although few, are integral to the culmination of my adventure. I, sometimes, feel as though I should document more of what I am undertaking.

Maybe for the fact that it is a more popular option, in these times, to let outsiders get a glimpse of what is happening in your life. But that notion quickly evaporates as I immerse myself in the intoxicating aroma that is my certainty. Knowing that, if anything were to befall myself or my family in my pursuit, I am ready, willing, and able to assume the consequences. Distractions don’t exist when you are locked into completing a sacred pilgrimage. With all of this being said, it is doubly important to know when, and how hard, to push. When to “moss” and take a step back. When to allow for your gift to recharge before pressing on. And if it should happen that I never make it to the end of the path that I have chosen, know that I loved every minute of my journey and that, wherever I end up, I’m on my way to creating a new one.

Seoul Pt. 1

How many times have I dropped off of the map, with regards to this blog?! Too many…Let me, quickly, explain my thought process, though. I, sometimes, need a space removed from any sort of requirements to anything in particular. However, this small space is somewhere that I can always go to when I feel reinvigorated, and want to have a little fun by letting a few things out. I just don’t believe in “churning out needless words” for the sake of staying relevant. This is a gift and I am not one to abuse these types of things. The one aspect of this exercise that I feel that I should be used to, at this point, but that I have yet to grasp, is that people generally enjoy what I provide them, on this blog. From time to time, I will run into a person that tells me that they can’t wait for a new entry, or that a particular one caught their eye. That is so cool. Of course, you have others that feel the need to pass on that I should be looking for monetary compensation for undertaking this form of expression (which is truly irritating). I don’t want money for this because I am having fun with it. When this shit starts to feel like a job, the fun is gone. The love is usually soon to follow. Really and truly, I simply would like to express my innermost thoughts and feelings. If that so happens to include you then so be it.

Now, let’s get to the good stuff. I was in Asia, last year. During that time, I was able to go to a few countries, meet some cool people and do some cool things. Oh, and I was able to eat some different, delicious food. I have taken a long while to edit the videos that I recorded but, recently, I was finally able to get around to it. I’m very glad to share my adventures with you. I hope that you enjoy it.

 

Reaching out

I hope that this reaches you well. I think of you every so often and I wonder where we went so wrong. It all seemed to be following a certain timeline. A certain path. We fought about things, from time to time, but you know that these things happen. I guess that we were simply speaking two different languages. I truly believe that. It’s a shame. Lives are changing all around us. People are getting married, having babies and I felt that we were on our way there, but then came the abruptness of the halt. It stunned me. The truth is that I had your back, through it all. I had wished that there would have been some way for you to have understood exactly what I am. I allowed you in. Gave you access  to seeing it, but I don’t think that you understood it, realized it, or even really cared. You can’t make people care about anything that they don’t want to care about, and I chose not to force the issue by maintaining a presence in your life. Maybe, at some point, you’ll see what I was trying to show you. Hindsight is always 20/20. Isn’t that what they say? But the clouds have dissipated, and my ceiling has been elevated, yet again. I am on a mission. I am making attempts to align my instinct and my mind, every day. I am one of the ones. You know that I am. I know it, too. Now. I hoped that you would be more than a page in the story but you chose to be just that. It’s a long book, though. and everyone loves a plot twist.

Foreigner Exchange Ep. 1 (Milton)

I’ve decided to introduce a new segment, to the site. I have so many great conversations with so many great people. Some of them I know and some of them,  I meet randomly. With their permission, I wanted to bring you all a bit of those great exchanges. The first episode of “Foreigner Exchange” features my guy, Milton. It’s so great to be able to unwind and have fun little convos in the presence of wonderful folks. These people push me to use my brain at a higher frequency, understand things that I may never have thought about and, ultimately, help me to become a better person. I have a love for everyone and I wanted to give a little bit of that love back to the folks that are interested in my blog.

Here is the very first offering, from “Foreigner Exchange”.

 

 

Shoutout to Milton.

H.i.m.

Press play

Daniel Caesar Feat. H.E.R. – Best Part

 

Hey… is this a bad time?

Not much. I’m sitting here wondering what you’re up to…How are you?

Oh, Okay. Cool. That’s good.

Me? Aww man, I’m okay. You know, just trying to navigate this world that we’re living in.

Haha, yea. That’s true.

The funny thing is that I just finished saying that I’m trying to navigate “this world that we’re living in”, but the premise of my statement is oxymoronic, by nature, since the world is unique to each and everyone living in it…Whatever, you know what I meant.

Haha, alright, alright. I get it. I’m a nerd. I guess that I deserved that.

Anyway, I know that I don’t normally call you, but I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. I thought about, maybe, not acting on it but it had been on my mind, more and more, in the last few weeks so, you know…I just…did it.

Ah, you’re welcome. I’m happy that it could make you smile.

They’re all doing well. Everyone had a pretty eventful summer. You know how my mom is. Always out and about. How’s everyone on your end?

Ha ha. Of course he would do something like that. That man is too funny.

So, there was a bit more to this call than just wondering about you.

Yea, I figured that you would have been aware of that. Haha, not the most subtle guy in the world, I guess.

I mean…I miss you, a lil bit.

Nah, nah. I’m not trying to convince you of anything like that. We are who we are, now. I just know that I enjoy your company and that I would like to see you sometime.

Wow, really? I’m so glad that you feel that way. I was so nervous about saying that, to you. Hahaha. Oh man!

How come you never reached out, though?

Hmm. Okay. Well, it doesn’t matter. I’m just relieved that you feel that way.

Great. So when are you free? Maybe we can go for dinner.

Yea, as friends. Of cour…what?

You…met someone…

Oh…

Because, well, when I said that I missed you, you said that you…

Oh.

Right…

Do you really like him? (Nervous laugh) Stupid question, I guess, but, I just…I dunno.

Oh…

Okay.

Yea…yea…maybe you’re right. Maybe it’s not a good time.

Yea….I’m sorry too…

Bye……………………………………….